Heavy heart

Ok so I am stupid, foolish, nuts etc etc.  I have put off taking the kittens to the SPCA for as long as I can. I believe they are at least two months old or maybe a week or two older. Love to play with them, even though most often they do not want to be touched but once you pick them up they snuggle and purr away, love to watch them play and jump on each other. They have destroyed two of my gardens but those gardens will come back next year.  But no matter I have come to really love the little dickens but I realize I have to stop being selfish and take them somewhere where they will get their shots, get fixed and find good homes where they will be happy.  I can't afford to do all that . I have three cats inside already and just can't take any of these little guys(gals) in. Yeah it will hurt when I put them in the carry along and leave them at the SPCA but knowing they will be well cared for matters more than that ... The mother cat... Well today she played with them, she was teaching them to fight and then she took off when they were not looking. I think she needed some R  and R away from them and she is weaning them away from her. Which is good as when I have to take them away she will not miss them so much.  She can stay here , with Squeakers who is a outdoor stray too.She will be fed twice a day and in winter will have a warm shelter made up for her. Or I will get that room below the steps for her to go into in winter with a warm shelter down there.

All for now.

Saw what I made last year

Last year at this time I was into making jams. Of many different flavors. But over the winter I was disappointed that other family members did not want any . So I have lots of jars of jam. Those in the freezer may keep a bit longer. But I have got about 10 jars will have to throw out in the next weeks. So no more of that kind of thing. But it was fun making it.

 Oh hells  bells this is gonna be short one for now. Might be back to this later

Tired, some depressed but I will be ok :)

Yesterday we had our Canada Day with most of my immediate family here. Loved it. We had hamburgs, hotdogs, sausage dogs, salads and strawberry cheesecake. mmmm And as usual after I stuffed myself ( you know like at Christmas time) I only wanted to have a nap. Funny how by 7pm ish you start to wonder when everyone will go home and when they all leave at the same time you feel depressed as if you want to call them all back.  There are some in the family I get ticked off at but I would never turn my back on them. Because they are all part of me.

 The cat and kittens.. well I can finally pet all the babies, Momma is a lovely cat. But I can't find homes for the kittens so I have written to the local SPCA to see if they have room for them.  I have heard of a foster program where they spay or neuter the kittens , deflea, deworm and even supply food and kitty litter but you take them home with you.  I could handle doing that but not sure my brother would approve. While they are with you the SPCA finds homes for them.  I hope I hear from them soon or the first part of the week.  What will we do with the Mother cat. ? Well we can let her outside but if she wants to come in she can sleep at night in that room downstairs... maybe :)  My brother may not approve.

  Between all the above and getting laid off well ... no wonder I want to go to bed at 8pm... They (temp service) says I am the hot list to go back as soon as a position becomes available. God I put up with that BS in the last job I had and I really thought it would be different this time around.  I should of known eh

  All for now.