Fostering and losing your heart

I have three cats of my own , well inside, and two outside. One is the mother cat of the kittens I had fostered for the SPCA. Anyways when I go down to the basement to clean the litter boxes for my cats I always go in the room where I kept the kittens. Their blankets are still there, their toys they played with are there, the memories of the little sweeties are there. Why? Well I like to think in case I decide to foster again. But I think it is thinking about them being in there with their sweet welcome when I let them out to play in the entire basement or to feed them. But... when I go in there the tears begin too. Cause I miss those little dickens. I miss Jet who would look up at me and cry loudly when he was hungry, Skittles with her little tuffs sticking out from behind her ears looking like little horns, Scamp who would jump up on my knee as soon as I sat down. Those three left first and it was hard to take them over to the SPCA and watch them take the wee ones away from me. God that hurt, really bad.  I tried not to look at them in one of their carriers but I did and they were all three looking at me , asking where I was going as I went out the door.  I knew they would be taken care of , not like I did because I was always petting them, loving them up... lol or would they .:)  I was told the next day they were taken to a Pet Smart and were adopted out right away.  I do not know where they are but I am ever hopeful they found good homes.
 The last kitten stayed with us one more week till a woman from a hour drive away could come and get her. My cousin arranged for this woman to adopt Lucy ( new family changed her name) and she had to wait a week to come and get her. Lucy was the kitten that almost always beat me up the staircase up into the main part of house.  She stayed in the room downstairs one night alone and that was it we let her just wander the house.  And we fell in love with her. She had the cutest little prrrrr with a meow on the end every time you called her name.  She would curl up with us and sleep on our shoulder or lap. Even the other cats and the dog got along with her by the time she left . I believe they missed her as much as we did.  I still can see Lucy running around the house . Miss her terribly but at least I know who has her and that she is in good hands and will be loved.
 To the person who just dropped their pregnant cat , likey cause she was pregnant, in the back lane... You are a asshole for leaving her to fend for herself. To try to find a good place to have her babies and fend for them. Thank goodness she found my feeding station and a few weeks after she had her kittens brought them here. She was such a protective mom. We had sent her to a TNR program so she is fixed , has her shots and they tipped her ear. Honestly I do not think we can find a home for her or that she would stay there if we did. She loves being outside, catching mice , playing. But she is no more than a kitten herself , less than a year and so small. I have to get her used to coming in the house because in winter there is no way in hell I can let her stay outside in the really cold weather. So perhaps she will become our in and out cat.  To the assholes who left her like that. IT WAS YOUR LOSE...She is such a loving little cat and she gave us the joy of knowing her kittens and taking care of them and enjoying their antics. We got the pleasure of them all , that you gave up.
  So now , after two litters of kittens we had from strays , the first litter of five we found homes for., I don't know, at least yet, if my heart can take fostering . So I am going to volunteer at the SPCA to either join their reading group (read to the dogs to lower their stress), walk the dogs or take care of cats and kittens. Or some of all of it. lol.  Yeah I know... my heart will be tugged at in this too. But it will feel so good to know I did my part in helping a dog or cat or rabbit , because they were abandoned or became unwanted or left because they are to old.
  Thank you God for giving me all the opportunities to share my heart with these beautiful souls

Heavy heart

Ok so I am stupid, foolish, nuts etc etc.  I have put off taking the kittens to the SPCA for as long as I can. I believe they are at least two months old or maybe a week or two older. Love to play with them, even though most often they do not want to be touched but once you pick them up they snuggle and purr away, love to watch them play and jump on each other. They have destroyed two of my gardens but those gardens will come back next year.  But no matter I have come to really love the little dickens but I realize I have to stop being selfish and take them somewhere where they will get their shots, get fixed and find good homes where they will be happy.  I can't afford to do all that . I have three cats inside already and just can't take any of these little guys(gals) in. Yeah it will hurt when I put them in the carry along and leave them at the SPCA but knowing they will be well cared for matters more than that ... The mother cat... Well today she played with them, she was teaching them to fight and then she took off when they were not looking. I think she needed some R  and R away from them and she is weaning them away from her. Which is good as when I have to take them away she will not miss them so much.  She can stay here , with Squeakers who is a outdoor stray too.She will be fed twice a day and in winter will have a warm shelter made up for her. Or I will get that room below the steps for her to go into in winter with a warm shelter down there.

All for now.

Saw what I made last year

Last year at this time I was into making jams. Of many different flavors. But over the winter I was disappointed that other family members did not want any . So I have lots of jars of jam. Those in the freezer may keep a bit longer. But I have got about 10 jars will have to throw out in the next weeks. So no more of that kind of thing. But it was fun making it.

 Oh hells  bells this is gonna be short one for now. Might be back to this later

Tired, some depressed but I will be ok :)

Yesterday we had our Canada Day with most of my immediate family here. Loved it. We had hamburgs, hotdogs, sausage dogs, salads and strawberry cheesecake. mmmm And as usual after I stuffed myself ( you know like at Christmas time) I only wanted to have a nap. Funny how by 7pm ish you start to wonder when everyone will go home and when they all leave at the same time you feel depressed as if you want to call them all back.  There are some in the family I get ticked off at but I would never turn my back on them. Because they are all part of me.

 The cat and kittens.. well I can finally pet all the babies, Momma is a lovely cat. But I can't find homes for the kittens so I have written to the local SPCA to see if they have room for them.  I have heard of a foster program where they spay or neuter the kittens , deflea, deworm and even supply food and kitty litter but you take them home with you.  I could handle doing that but not sure my brother would approve. While they are with you the SPCA finds homes for them.  I hope I hear from them soon or the first part of the week.  What will we do with the Mother cat. ? Well we can let her outside but if she wants to come in she can sleep at night in that room downstairs... maybe :)  My brother may not approve.

  Between all the above and getting laid off well ... no wonder I want to go to bed at 8pm... They (temp service) says I am the hot list to go back as soon as a position becomes available. God I put up with that BS in the last job I had and I really thought it would be different this time around.  I should of known eh

  All for now. 

Gotta get rid of the sign and other things bothering me

Well it has only been 6 months since I last wrote in this blog. Ok the sign on the back of my car says Crazy Cat Lady and sometimes I swear some people take this overserious. Just before Christmas a long haired orange tabby appeared at my feral feeding shelter. We knew this cat was to friendly not to be someones special pet. So we fed this cat and when it began to get colder we had to do something . So I sent pictures of said cat to two vets and the SPCA. The local vet got a hold of someone in a nearby town that they thought I had their cat. So we got in touch and they came down (10 minute drive) and as soon as they got out of the car one woman began to cry because I indeed did hold her cat Teddy.  They figure someone stole the cat from their yard and got tired of him and just dropped him off in our back lane. Some humans should be put away for societies sake because they have no compassion to do this to a innocent cat.  Anyways this cat got back home after being gone 102 days
  Almost 2 months ago a smallish brown tabby showed up at the feeding station. She was so friendly and wanted to be pet. When I picked her up I knew she was nursing little ones. A few weeks later she brought them up to the neighbors where it is overgrown and has lots of places to be safe. Since then I have begun the slow process of socializing the little ones (4).  I took the Mom to be spayed today at a cat rescue that has very decent prices for all they do.  The kittens are downstairs in a room till Mom comes back tomorrow.  Now someone got this beautiful cat , then just threw her away when she got pregnant.  Such insensitive not to mention stupid humans. Why not spend a bit of money and get her fixed or better yet let her get a good home to begin with. Grrrrrrr